I’ve decided to start sharing some of the #metoo stories that others in the industry have shared with me — with permission of course. If you would like to share your story of rape, abuse, sexual assault or sexual harassment with me to post here on my site (your own #MeToo story) you can email it to me. Just please make sure to let me know if you want me to redact your name so that I know or not if I should post it anonymously.

This paticular story was one someone shared with me over the phone. So I typed her story up for her (with her permission of course) so that I could share it with all of our in my new #MeToo series.

When I was new to the industry I had no idea what I was doing. I was so clueless and too scared to use my voice.  Don’t be like me. If you don’t’ want to do something, don’t do it. And if your agent threatens to leave you standard like mine did, threaten him or her back by saying you will go to the police. Watch house face they change their tune. Remember agents work for you, not the other way around.

My agent flew me out to Arizona do a boy/girl scene. I was going to be paid $800 for the scene plus they covered my flight and my hotel for the night since I couldn’t get a flight back until the next morning.

When I showed up I was informed that it wasn’t a boy/girl scene it was, in fact, a gangbang. I had never slept with five guys before and I didn’t think it was something I could handle. And even if I could handle give guys, I think I should have made more than the same rate I was getting for just one guy.

I called my agent to let her know what was going on and she freaked out on me. She started calling me ungrateful and told me that if I didn’t suck it up and do the scene I could find my own way home.

I had no money and no way home. I had no choice. I had to do it. At the time I didn’t know I had rights. I didn’t know that there were people I could go to for help.

I did the scene and regretted it. It wasn’t fun. I was bruised up and sore for days after the shoot. I was stupid to not stand my ground with my shitty agent.

Agents are supposed to be there for you. They should be forcing you to do something you don’t want to do and they should put you in a situation where you could be stranded and had no way back home.

I’ve been in the industry 5 years now and I’ve never done another gangbang and I never will. It’s just not my thing. I want to do scenes that I enjoy, not be forced into having sex with 5 guys at the same time just so I can have a way home.